Where Do I Even Begin?

"You should write a book!"

 I've heard it many times. I've dreamed about it. I've prayed about it. I've discussed it with friends and family. I've even tried a few times.

Once, I began writing an adventure for a young boy with Asperger's. There's a lot of research that goes into writing books. I had three kiddos under age 5, and four more kiddos besides. How much research and writing could possibly get done? I did get several handwritten pages in, but when I read them over, it was inconsistent, and ideas were crisscrossing all over the pages. I put the story away, hoping for a better time to get at it.

Another time, I tried writing about raising kids. But, I was busy with raising kids.


I usually wonder, after someone says that to me, what it was about our conversation that led them to say it. Was it a funny thing that I said? (Was I even funny to anyone but myself?) Was it some insightful, intelligent thing that I said? (Was the thing that I thought was intelligent the same thing THEY thought was intelligent?) Was it just that we have such wacky, zany adventures? (Or just completely unbelievable circumstances?)

Sometimes I write down ideas and phrases that just occur to me out of nowhere, hoping they will flesh out into some grand idea. Not so far. Maybe I can just publish a book of possibilities, and others can write amazing books out of them.

This blog even took a hiatus for a year because of life. I realized, though, that all of the creative things took a hiatus from my life this last year. I haven't crocheted, or paper crafted. I didn't make christmas tree ornaments, I haven't been canning and baking. I haven't even switched out the color of my eyeshadow all year. And I've worn the same silver hoop earrings every time I reach for a pair.

Bleh.

So, I bought a coloring book. I used to love to color, a lot! Then the grown-up coloring book became all the rage, and I avoided it like the plague. I don't like to follow the crowd. I like to what I like to do because I like doing it, not because everyone else likes doing it. But then, I relented. Maybe I think it'll lose popularity soon, and the next big thing will be all the rage by Christmas.  I wanted to start being creative again, but it had to be something that could travel well, and not be messy.  I also need a good fiction book to read. I'll start slowly, and let the creativity build. Maybe I'll get to Christmas ornaments by Christmas.  And maybe I'll start writing another book.